This week I began doing something I’m not exactly a fan of….counting calories…
I’ve downloaded “My Fitness Pal” and started tracking what I’m eating.
In the past, whenever I’ve read or heard about people counting calories I’ve always sort of had a negative opinion about using that method in general. It just seems like a slippery slope to me where personally I might become obsessive about the number and how it ties to my worth and takes away the joy I find in eating. It just also seems like a way I don’t want to live forever, always concerned with how much each thing is and so forth.
In the past, I wouldn’t have even considered worrying about doing it because my primary focus has always been on reading ingredients and letting the way my body looks and feels lead to control quantity. This is still where I’d like to “Live” the rest of my life with eating.
So what sparked my new outlook and promoted me to do something outside of my comfort zone?
Four things happened last week:
1. A doctors appointment where I stepped on the scale (I don’t do it often anymore because I truly believe my worth is not solely measured by this number)
2. I saw a few photos of me where I didn’t love the way I looked (even though I feel pretty good energy and mood wise)
3. A nutrition guru/idol of mine shared her own journey of wanting to change her body composition and started using a coach and meal plan where she tracks Macros (Carbs/Protein/Fat)
4. Asking a trainer who I trust to help me & learning that she requires you to use My Fitness Pal
So I’m trying something new to see if I can handle it. I have some body composition/aesethic goals I’d like to achieve. And right away I question why it matters what I look like. Does it? I’d be lying to say I don’t care about how I look. I do care, and I also immediately realize I need to pray and seek God’s guidance and instruction in this area of my life. Because this can easily lead to a place where striving so hard to look a certain way, causes me to stray so very far away from what’s most important- serving God, taking care of my family, helping others to name a few- to achieve a beautiful body on the outside, with a very ugly soul inside.
It just so happened that last night, after a day of tracking, when I picked up my bible this was my devotion:”Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?” Matthew 6:25
I’m humbled and very grateful that God is helping me work through this already. His word says “For your heavenly Father knows you need all these things. But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:32
I’m approaching this method with the right mind set and I plan to use the tracking as a tool to reach a goal. I’ll track this week so my trainer has a baseline, and then we see what I can do differently to make changes in my body composition. I’d also like to note that this goal is something I’d like work on for myself. I simply saw something about the way my body looks right now and decided to work on changing it. Having the help of a trusted coach will help me if I start wavering from balancing achieving my body composition goals and becoming obsessive about my body in an unhealthy way. And as always my food choices will be whole & nutrient dense!
I’m very confident in knowing that the people in my life who love me, will love me no matter how I look, and in knowing that my worth and value is not determined by the way my body looks. But I also know many of us struggle to balance this and thought I’d share my journey here for accountability and so anyone else struggling with this might find peace.
So tell me friends, who else uses a tracking tool? How do you maintain a balance between tracking and enjoying food?
Thank you for reading!